Jordan Gray Vs Theo Llewellyn, The Voice 28/02/2016 … a moment of validation for me and I hope the rest of the Trans population in the UK
It was described as a battle, but it was one of the most perfect duets I have ever heard, the metaphors I could draw from the performance are many, but the performance speaks a thousand words.
Yes I cried, yes I nodded knowingly at the self depreciating comments from Jordan, understood only too well the worries over parodying a woman, felt profoundly the immense tidal wave of feeling and emotion that came through in the performance – I felt it deeply, very deeply.
Why because somehow it mirrored the hurt, pain and suffering I know and many other trans people know. Like an enigma wrapped up in a riddle to some, to me and I am sure to many the performance spoke volumes about Trans life, without mentioning it directly.
I could have cried all night as the pain of the years of fighting with being trans started to engulf me, years of fighting, years of teetering along on the tight rope between life and suicide. But the tsunami of emotion boiling under the surface didn’t come, it hit a wall, a new wall in my mind, a wall of renewed hope, a wall with the word validated on it.
This wall or strength and of feeling a little more validated had been building for some time but this performance completed it a little more. To even start to feel validated as a part of the human race is immense, much of the time I feel the opposite, for so many dark days and years. Contradict, deny, disagree, disallow, disapprove, discredit, disprove, invalidate, oppose, refuse, reject, repudiate – all words felt by my self and many Trans people the world over.
For me this performance by Jordan and Theo shone a light of true hope and showed that Trans people are very special people and should be embraced by society, if nothing else we are the true bridge between people because if we can’t see it from both sides nobody can.
Trans people are fighters, they are often the last to give up and when they do they have gone further than most could ever imagine possible, they are strong, deeply strong. No matter if they work in entertainment, a supermarket, on a building site or don’t work at all, Trans people are valid, valuable and relevant and always have been.
Thank you to to Jordan, Theo, Paloma, Boy George and of course the BBC for shining a spot light on how valid trans people are. But most of all most of my thanks goes out to Jordan, it took a lot to do what you have done and I for one wish you all the very best of luck on the show.
Win it for your talent, win because you are the Voice, and as you win it let us all forget you are trans, but let us all at the same time feel the warmth of knowing you are.
Slowly but surely, all Trans people are winning a hard fought battle. Although we have lost too many along the way and will no doubt lose some more, we have many more to win for. We owe it to those who have passed, those who still struggle and for the future generations of Trans people, to keeping walking, so hopefully one day Trans people will never know the pain of what we have lived through.
We all must keep on keeping on being transparent and keep fighting gently never to be invisible. Water of a stone one day we will achieve true validation as human beings, nothing more nothing less.
Listen to the fight in this demo recorded by Jordan back in 2015 under the Name of Tall Dark Friend … she’s more than the sweet tones we heard last night.